Dread /dred/
noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…
verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance
When I was younger, it felt like i could change reality if i dreamed hard enough,
At night, as i drift to sleep beneath the glow of liquid crystal,
My thoughts would culture and bead,
rolling from my eyes into the ocean of stars
And somewhere among those shining isles,
a pearl would drop,
And offer an escape from this isolation.
As I drift to sleep,
I'm witness
to visions of days unseen.
Thoughts of work swirl
round these aimless captives
as they drown beneath
a mountain of tasks.
We drown inside every pool-
drown inside each shallow prison.
How can we go on?
Should I fling my raw lungs open
to fill the void inside me?
Should I release these ballast dreams,
and free my burning insides?
Would that be enough?
My astonished heart
just keeps going on,
and each round pushes on the enclosure.
How am I meant to have faith,
when nobody believes in me?
All the old patron spirits
left my dreams,
telling me the world
had changed for them too-
They said,
“there’s no place
for natural paths now.”
Locked inside hidden temples,
they wait for a fresh offering,
so they can start weaving
and crafting and designing again.
But the world’s been
automated to death-
prayers can’t breach
a horizon filled with noise;
so the algorithms will show us
what our hearts most desire.
Left alone in these backrooms,
I began to wander my mind,
and turn over the question in my head:
“These gilded whispers-
do they nucleate from
all wounded hearts?“