Dread /dred/
noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…
verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance
When I was younger,
it felt like i could change reality
if i dreamt enough.
At night,
as I wandered the world’s byways
beneath the cool glow
of liquid crystal,
My thoughts would begin
to culture and bead.
They rolled from my eyes
to the ocean of stars,
and whispered this wish
to the heavens:
that somewhere among
those accrete shining isles,
a pearl would drop
from night’s dark waves
and offer a reprieve
from this shallow grave.
On long winter nights,
I enter the twisted gates of Hell,
laying alms at
the feet of tortured souls
to pay respect
to each resentful tear
shed in search of
that fickle light on high.
Sidling around
narrow corridors and winding around
precarious cliffs,
l found myself among pits of despair,
searching for
the black sun calling my name.
As the world heats up,
it sucks the warmth
from the human soul.
When did I first realize I was on the wrong side of the glass?
Did I lose my footing,
and sink into the dry abyss,
while holy palmers
dance above the light?
I dreamt of joining them
as an icon:
unrivaled luster,
prestige worthy of
a precious gemstone,
things that could lift me from the trash heap
blocking the horizon.
I yearn for air too,
but I'm far below the surface’s lights;
It barely reaches the hole in my heart
where I chose to hide.
To hide from the world-
the ones who hate me,
And the ones whose silent
stares burn like venom.
Who am I to you?
Another irritation
caught in this noisy datastorm?
